First thought... Part 1

A week...

A mere 7 days since my entire existance has been shattered and thrown into a somewhat new world, yet so...medieval like.

At first I thought I was dreaming...even hoped I was... But I guess I should have been used by now that dreams and hope do not mengle well together. 

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I don't know how long it has been since I had to flee the survivors camp... since James was killed to protect me... Months, maybe a year. Time flows differently when you are alone.. And alone what was I wanted to stay. So many have died, I couldn't risk to get attached to someone just to see them die, or worse, having to kill them myself...

I thought that going back were they found me was a good idea. They had showed me where it was many years ago, but I didn't think that I would be able to find anything... but at least it gave me a purpose to keep walking forward. 

But what I found was...not something that I would have thought possible.

Why on earth couldn't I restrain myself to jump in the water to find out what had fallen from the sky?! I'm sure the fact that I had nothing more to live for was a good reason enough to jump and see that strange thing, but still...it was stupid on my part! 

Though... I cannot say I regret touching the mirror, or the deamon gate, like Wolf called it... 

I was definitly not expecting that I would be transported somewhere else....like litteraly a world away from where I lived, but again, it was only the beginning of the impossible being possible...  

If only this mirror had fell down years ago... maybe they wouldn't all be dead... 

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Wolf was the first one I found... well I should probably say that he is the first one that I stumbled upon. Laying down on that stone table... I should have known better than to touch him... but could I really have let him there without trying anything to save him? He definitly didn't look dead, but he sure has hell looked like he has been there for a very long time.

Yet again I didn't think and just acted... so much for self-preservation... 

I barely remember what happened when I touched the serpents like crest on his chest but it's definitly then that him and I were linked, cursed, or whatever it is that we are now...

I didn't want to admit it at first, even though the pain was real every time his body was hurt... but now.... now I can no longer deny the bond between us!

Everything that hurt him will hurt me, the same for him if I am hurt. My life is no longer my own... I can no longer just act as if my choices would only impact me and think that every choice I make, he will have to deal with the consequences along with me. Our life are now one...in hope that someday we will find a way to undo this bond that seems to get stronger each passing day.

...sigh...

It has been hard accepting it...and I must say, it will probably keep on being harder as the time will pass. I didn't want to be with people, I didn't what to feel for other. Because I know that if they die... which they always do, I might not be able to recover from it this time...I've lost too many already! My heart was already deeply wounded by each death that I had to endure...

I need to stay focus on the fact that this, magical shit of sort, is only for a short while!! We won't be like this forever, and when we will finally be free from each other, we will go our separate ways! I cannot let myself feel anything for Wolf, nor care for him in any way. I must keep on hating him so I won't be devasted in the end...

...sigh... 

The same goes for all the others... 

Ren and So were the ones that we met first, when Wolf and I got through another deamon gate that was near the stone table. 

Almost instantly we had our first fight of the many that followed... Though I must say that I never thought that the giant cat that we fought back then would become a part of the group as well! 

Not sure how this can be possible, but then again... since I'm in this new world, impossible is no longer a possible termed to use for everything that I saw.

Tas and Don were soon to join as well, along with Sly, and now we have again new comers joining in, Ly and Dog... 

So many people around me now! So much for me wanting to stay alone... 

I need to keep on not caring for any of them! This is only a temporary situation! When it will be resolved we will all go our separate ways and never see each other again!

...sigh...

Hopefully I will keep to this belief and won't get myself attached to anyone in the process! 

For that to happen,  I need to set myself a goal to focus on, and I think I know exactly what this goal will be! 

Finding a hiding place in this new world to start a new life... once all of this is over! This world is magnificent and well alive! In this matter I will definitly not be going back to my dying world... It would be killing myself and I'm a survivor...aren't I ?