First thought... Part 2

I think my head will explod with thinking so much... Everything that is happening is completly out of what I have always known! 

I feel like I'm playing a characther of a D&D game in a SciFi fantasy movie! 

Geez... I can even do magic now... Like, I don't even now how I do it?? How is it even possible for me to do magic when I didn't even know that magic really existed a week ago!! And aren't magic user suppose to be thought how to do it? Or at least shouldn't they be aware of their magical capacity before being able to cast something ? And why my hair turned white out of nowhere ? 

So many questions yet still no answers to any of those...sigh...

I know most of the magic spell I'm casting is on pure instinct, but still... Could it be the bond ? Like, can it be this link between me and Wolf that gave me some magical power of sorts ? 

They all seem to think that it was already within me, but I doubt it... and yet... if it was really within me all this time, could this magical power be the reason why I never got infected with CH-79z? If so, how did I get this power? 

My parents told me they found me in a tree trunk while taking a walk in the forest... Did my real parents new of that power somehow and decided to abandon me ? Was my real parents from our world... or from this one... or from another? 

...sigh...

Do I even want answers to those questions ? They abandonned me... so lets be logical and accept that they didn't want me with them. That apart, I am still thankful to them for putting me in the path of amazing people that loved me as one of their own...

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So much happened in just a week that my brain is barely able to follow all of it. 

It's not to hard staying emotionally away from the others at this point... and I'm pretty sure none of them wants to stick around me too much as I put them more in danger than any other one in the group... 

First I'm already on a wanted list... not that I understand why, but Bounty hunters are now officially looking for me. 

Second, I had them transported to an unknown location because I blew into a windpipe given by a ... actually I'm not sure who or what she was... 

Third, well... I drank something that I shouldn't have... I don't know what it was, none of us do, but it was definitly not something I should have tasted... and then boom I woke up to be surrounded by dead people...

So yeah.... keeping the rest of them away from me has been suprinsingly easy, if I could say it like that.

But I still see them, observe them... a part of me want to be part of something, but I know deep down that I musn't... 

They are all weird in a sense and they all seem to be able to follow everything that is going on without much thought.

So is the weirdest I think... A rich girl with a dark interest in blood, explosion and weird creatures. She seems to like the dark humour of Wolf and she has full trust in Ren...even though she knows nothing of him, it, or whatever he is... She is scary with her thurst of carnage and yet... she makes me coffee like if everything is normal....really scary!

Ren is... I don't know....strong!? He says he have no memories of his past, but does he really ? Whats is he ? From my point of view, he is pretty much like a terminator robot. Like Arnold Scharzenegger!! Maybe he was sent into this world to acomplish a mission ? He doesn't seem to mind different races like So does... in fact he doesn't seem to mind much that is going on... he just goes with the flow!

I don't have much an opinion on Tas and Sly, as they mostly keep to themself...Though Sly is more talkative, he seems to hide and observe behind is big mouth, while Tas, just keep observing silently. 

Don... I don't know what it is with her, but everytime I'm around her I feel at peace, safe. That is why I must not get too close to her... or I'll start worrying for her and then I will start caring for her... no! I will not!

Lil and Dog, we will see... They seems to know alot about all of this... hopefully they will be able to quicken the pace of all this and we will be able to go our separe ways faster!!

Wolf... well he is the more dangerous one to me. Not just because he can, and is easily hurting me, but since my life is intertwined with his... I can't just ignore him... He was clearly mad when I drank that potion thing and he made me understand how I have endanger all of us by my careless actions... I felt his rage within me... his anger... Every word that came out was like a punch to my face. He was right! On everything he said... I acted like a child...

Wolf is dark... not sure I could say he is evil, but he is definitly not good. They way his eyes bore into mine when we talked together after I met the lady in white by the river...It was like he was searching within my soul...  The way his brows twitches at the mentions of her name...anger?  And when he asked urgently how I came to know the name of his wife after we burned down the dead villagers !? What happened to his wife? To him? Why was he locked sleeping into that cave for nearly 500 years... why does he seems to hate humans and mages so much? All those questions that I shouldn't be asking myself are rolling into my head...  I shouldn't care what this is all about... 

But like I said, he was right on the fact that I acted like a child, an unknowing child at that. I need to keep my head on if I want to survive all of this. I must also admit that I will need these people to get to my goal, which is getting my freedom to be able to find a place to live. So until then, I will learn to work with them... and think before doing any careless thing again!

I say we should call our group the cursed ones...Don and Tas has a similar curse to mine and Wolf... Ren also has one, but he isn't link to anyone... or not anyone that we know of... So also has a curse on her, but we don't know what hers is or do...It just leaves Sly, Ly and Dog to know if they are cursed or not... I say they probably are! Anyhow, just being tagged along with us should be considered a curse, so yeah... we are the cursed ones.