Money....
How can you loose yourself so much for it? What can it bring you, more than your own life can? Comfort, luxury, servents.... ?? Your life is way more important than any of this!
I may have a biased mindset since I did't grow up were money was much needed, but seriously, I didn't think they could go so low for it...
I tried... Tried to understand there need for money... but no, I still don't get it.
When I danced in that bar, for those drunkards, it was the first time I made money on my own since for ever. The feeling I had while dancing was only being grossed out by those perverts looking at me as if I was the best meal they could have. I didn't like it...
When I took the 2 gold pieces in my hands after the dance I felt nothing more than disgust... No satisfaction whatsoever. Shouldn't I have felt pleased to make my own money ? I thought I would... but no... nothing except disdain towards those 2 golden pieces.
So much, that I gave those immediately to Wolf... Can we consider my dancing like selling myself for these 2 gold pieces ? Definitely.... I had to try it, and I did... Never again! I won't be selling myself for money!!
But that is me...
I definitely do not have the same point of view as most of the other of the group...
Since the plan to meet the higher up has been made, they only talk about how to make money (wich is the reason why I decided to dance in the first place)
When they talked about fights club, I didnt thought it was fights to death... I followed them inside like a good puppy and now I feel trap. I'm not even the one fighting and yet I feel like I am partially responsible for those man death....
How can Ren et Tas killed those men without hesitation...? They even did a little show with ripping one the arms off one of them... all for money... I am utterely discusted.
So is completly enjoying herself, like she's overjoyed with all the bloodshed... Don is somewhat uncomfortable, but I can't really tell if it's her worry for Tas or if it's the situation that makes her so silent... Ly is as always calm and unreadable. She seems to be looking at something that only her can see... I wonder what she is thinking about this gruesome site...
And Wolf is...somewhere... he disapeared since we came to to the fighting arena. Probably working toward his goal of getting in the upper class... at least he doesn't seem to be in danger or getting too far away, causing me to follow him... thought I wish he would at the moment...
I can't stay here any longer...I am suffocating... This place and people have no respect for the life they were given... They are killing for the show...only to gain more money... I can't... I just can't be part of this... I need air...
